There are so many “diet” and “weight loss” and “healthy eating” blogs out there that I really never felt I had much to say on the topic. Believe me, so many women are doing it better than I ever could. Not to mention the fact that I am not obese and never have been. But, that doesn’t mean I haven’t had weight issues. We all have. You know it.

I’ve never been really thin, not even in high school. I liked to eat. When I got to college I did what most college girls do… gained a ton. I was probably at my heaviest during college but I was so busy with school and friends that I honestly didn’t pay much attention to my weight. I don’t think I ever got on a scale during school at all. I don’t think I owned a scale. Going to college in Philadelphia was a dieter’s worst nightmare. Cheesesteaks were everywhere… kind of like water. Hungry… eat a cheesesteak. Being a design student also didn’t help much. I pretty much pulled all-nighters several days a week and learned really quickly that Dominoes delivered to the dorms at any hour. Mmmmm… hot pizza.

Okay, never mind about how I actually gained all that weight… the point is, I did. After I graduated I moved across the country to California. Best decision I ever made. I love it here and the fact that Southern California is full of thin, beautiful women certainly did a lot to change my eating habits. Still… it wasn’t easy.

By the time I got married, I was the thinnest I had ever been. I felt great and I was happy. Jump to where I am now… 3 kids later and I’m just not all that happy with the way I look. No, I’m not fat. But… I would definitely be happier if I lost 15 pounds. That’s all… just 15. Unfortunately, that 15 doesn’t want to come off as easily as it did 15 years ago.

What could I do? I joined Weight Watchers Online. I chose online because I’ve been to Weight Watchers meetings before and quite honestly, I hate them. I hate all that rah-rah=rah, aren’t we all fabulous? I don’t need someone telling me what to eat… I know what I should eat. I just don’t do it.

I started on Monday and I already feel much better. I’ve lost 3 pounds so far, not setting any records, but that’s 3 pounds less than I weighed on Monday. David is doing it with me and he lost 5 pounds. Go David! Myy clothes are fitting a little better. Of course I know it’s mostly water weight, but I don’t care. Weight is weight. It’s now gone. I know I can do this!

The first 3 days I was hungry and cranky. I wanted food and I wanted to be left alone. By day 4 I was feeling so much better and my stomach was getting used to a lot less food. I was also less cranky. Although my husband and kids will probably tell you differently.

I’m actually craving water.

Losing weight isn’t so easy when you are only 5’2″ and are 46 years old. My body wants to hold on to every ounce of fat it has. And nobody wants to help. If you have 50 pounds to lose or more, everyone wants to jump on the bandwagon and help. They give you advice, throw diet products at you and are all full of “you can do it” and “willpower is key”. When you only need to lose 15 or 10 or 5, people look at you and wonder what on earth you are complaining about. I know, they would kill to be my weight. But “I” don’t want to be my weight. It’s too much to make me feel comfortable.

I know I’ll never be super model thin and I really don’t want to be. I certainly don’t want my daughters thinking you have to be skinny to be happy. But, I also want them to see me eating healthy and getting trim and fit the “good” way.

So, I’m not going to harp on the issue and I probably won’t bring it up again… except to let you know I reached my goal. If I ever reach my goal. I’m not giving myself a time limit… although my brother’s wedding is in 6 months so that would be a good goal… if I had a goal. (Okay, maybe I do have a goal.)