Since BlogHer 2012 I’ve had all kinds of crazy thoughts rolling around in my head. Some I sifted through, realized they were not really crazy, just stupid, and I threw them out. The really crazy ones remained, however, and I’m sitting here wondering what I’m supposed to do with all the crazy. Because they just aren’t crazy… they are downright scary.
So I’m left with the crazy, scary thoughts and I kind of want to throw them away too, but I can’t. They won’t leave me. And it’s kind of making me crazy!
I opened my email this morning and this is what I saw…
A blog post from The Daily Love titled “If you’re doing it right, you are going to be totally scared!” Holy Shit! Did this guy just read my mind?
I’ve been struggling lately with the direction I want to go. Do I want to keep blogging? Do I want to take it in a different direction? Do I feel like I’m not being completely fulfilled with what I’m doing? Do I have other ideas? The answer to all is YES. But it’s scary. Does that mean I’m doing it right? Or does it mean I have no idea what I’m doing? Probably both.
I’m trying to solidify some ideas and I have no idea what direction they will lead me in. I just know that if I don’t try, where does that leave me? Pretty much nowhere. I think we all get to a point where we have to take a chance, jump off the cliff and see if we drop or fly. And sometimes we drop so low to the point where we think we’re going to crash but at the very last minute we start to soar. I know… I’m getting all philosophical. Stop it!
Here’s what I know.
I need something more.
I don’t know yet what that means.
I have to find out.
I’ll be starting today. Because if I don’t start today, I’ll kick myself tomorrow for not giving myself a head start on something that could be kind of crazy. And scary. And wonderful.
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I’m excited to see what you have planned!
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Oh wow, change is always good. The priority here is that you are happy and proud of what you do and you come up with. I will be checking in a lot just to see what changes are made! {I’m too excited!}
Great to see you turned that angst into something positive! Kudos to you.
You go girl! Can’t wait to see what you are going to do.
Tonya Staab recently posted..Midtown Walking Tour with StumbleUpon
Sounds like you have something major brewing. I’m sending good thoughts your way and hope something great comes out of it - I know it will! A quote that always helps me when my mind starts to wander and I worry that all my dreams are just crazy thoughts is this, “Dreams are blue prints for action.” Good luck!!!
Su (@IEShineOn) recently posted..Bel Vino Winery
Thanks Su. You never know if you don’t try.
Change can be scary, but the results can be good!! Good luck!
Thank you.
Kudos to you, Carolyn. Looking forward to the birth of your new baby!
PAMELA TAYLOR recently posted..Walking Away From Opportunity
Ha ha. Me too. Not sure what it’s going to be yet, but it’s in there cooking.
Awesome! I think the scary thing for me is NOT trying to keep up with everyone. If I do my own thing, will I fall out of the race? Wait… is there a race? I don’t think so. If I’m just me, and have no particular agenda, is there a place for me? I’m kinda scared at the answer, but I guess it’s time to find out! Thanks for the inspiration!
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I was the same way… felt like I had to measure up to everyone else. But, I decided to change me stance. I’d rather be the one who other people wanted to measure up to. Okay, that came out conceited. I mean that I need to forge my own path, not follow someone else’s.
I’m scared a lot and just read this and decided that can be a positive.
That’s so funny because you always seem very sure of yourself.
I love this post. I have been terrified of change but I know that change has to come. Oddly enough, it’s being forced onto me by other factors that I can’t control, but maybe this is good. So I’m going to embrace it and run with it. I’m excited that you are too! I think there must be something in the air that is about embracing change. Plus you always have my support. ^_^
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Can’t wait to see where you take the blog!
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It is scary to step out and try something new but it is actually kind of exciting too. Wishing you much luck in your discovery process!
Paula @ Simply Sandwich recently posted..Time Savers for Busy Mornings
I hear you there loud and clear! Just when I think I’ve figured out what I want to do with my blog or life, I change my mind again. I’m in that place of discontent again… I am sick of putting my hobbies and interests to the back burner. Frustrating.
Elle @SeeMomWorkBlog — All work and no play makes mommy a dull chick.
It is very frustrating. Every time I have an idea of something I want to do I end up not doing it because of the kids, the house, the husband. I need to start making ME happy.
Everyone agrees! You are crazy! And amazing! And inspiring! And honest! And you are going far in Awesomeville and we all want to go too!! Thanks for leading the way!
Melissa (@MizMeliz) Reyes recently posted..You’re a poet. . . and don’t know it!