I wonder how it is that I reached 46 and haven’t experienced the loss of a friend before. I guess I was lucky.
Today, my luck ran out.
My dear friend Sidney died this morning. I write the words through my tears but I still have trouble comprehending it. Wrong, wrong, wrong. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. She was younger than me. People younger than me don’t die. Unless it’s a horrendous accident. People younger than me aren’t supposed to get sick, go into the hospital, stop breathing. It’s inconceivable.
We had lunch a few weeks ago. We sat and talked about the direction SoCal Lady Bloggers was going in – the group she founded with Megan and allowed me in as their partner. She was excited. I was excited.
I knew she wasn’t feeling well and that she hadn’t been eating much. No appetite. I knew she had been in the hospital recently. Still… your friends aren’t supposed to die. MY friends aren’t supposed to die.
The great part about the online community is that word spreads fast. Condolences have come in and I know there are many, many people out there who are missing her too. I can’t even imagine how her family is dealing with this. No parent should ever lose a child. It goes against the grain.
Life moves on, I know. But not today. Maybe tomorrow.
Miss you Sid.